A home without books is a body without soul. - Cicero



Pink Taffy.
Polka Pink.
Meadow Twilight.
Purple Essence.

Pageant Pansy.

So girly.
So lovely.

Tomorrow, we begin.



It's just under the surface, like the tiny bubbles in the pot just before the water comes to a full boil. We're in limbo. Everything is in boxes, or piles, or bags, or stacked in corners or on counters or on the floor, waiting to go.

There are empty hooks on the walls, places where happiness and art and love once hung. Now the hooks stare back at me blankly, and it seems as though I can see the imprint of what used to be there, like some sort of ghostly reminder. Every surface is covered with dust, except the places where a vase sat, or a picture frame, or a book. Those have all been packed up, once again, leaving an imprint of what used to me. The bookshelves are empty, save for a handful of magazines and home improvement books.

The kitchen is the worst. Empty hooks where the measuring spoons hung beneath the spice cabinet, an imperfection in the dulling wood of the countertop where the mixer's white coating flaked off. The drawers are half empty. I agonized over which melon baller to take. The curtains I made will stay. My rolling pins will come with me. Do I leave the crockpot or take it?

Suddenly, these decisions become overwhelming. Paralyzing, even. I stand in front of the cabinets for ten full minutes, weighing the pizza wheel and the ice cream scoop.

In the end, I take the nice melon baller and the second best ice cream scoop, and I put it in the box with a plastic sippy cup that the girl hasn't used in five years, and our toasting flutes that we haven't used in over eight. I stack that box on top of the others, neatly labeled, pick up my keys, and shut the door.

For tonight, at least. Soon, I'll be shutting that door for the last time.

But I'll still have the imprint. And that house will still - always - have mine.



... from my girl tonight. Two pink roses, some astrolomeria, and a lily, which smells lovely next to my bed.

And a note, in sweet baby handwriting, that says, "I love you, Mama."

These are the moments I need to remember when she's refusing to finish her homework, or her room is a mess, or we're butting heads over the brushing of the hair.

These are the moments I never want to forget.

I'm a lucky mama.



...there will be pink and green.
...there will be quilts.
...there will be a purple (!!!) couch.
...there will be boxes everywhere.
...there will be laughter.
...there will be adventure.
...there will be nerves.
...there will be trips to the library.
...there will be books everyhwere.
...there will be art.
...there will be sewing machines.
...there will be life.
...there will be books.
...there will be flowers.
...there will be love.
...there will be...